Today is a day to remember the babies who are now in Heaven with Our Great Lord. What does this day mean to me? Well, I had an early miscarriage at the beginning of summer and still think about how far along I would be right now. I probably wouldn't have even known I was pregnant if I hadn't been getting blood work and found out early. But as soon as the nurse called to tell me that I was pregnant, I was elated! I was so excited to tell family and tell sweet son that he was going to be a big brother. We kinda hesitated at first to tell anyone as early as we did because we wanted to make it as close to the second trimester before telling. Though I am glad we did. It wouldn't have made it any easier if we had kept it a secret. Either we would have gone through the pain and heartache alone, or with friends and family who would lift us up and pray for us.
I do not share this for sympathy and really hesitate sharing at all because this is such a personal thing. Though it has been weighing on my heart recently and I think the Holy Spirit is pushing me to share for those who are struggling or feeling that they are alone. I felt alone when it happened, but once I started talking about it to friends and family, I was far from alone. It saddened me to find out that so many of my friends and family members had lost babies and had pregnancies that ended far too early. I am thankful to them who told me their stories and shared their journey with me. I pray for them and pray for those of you who are struggling in silence. I am still struggling. I yearn for another little baby to hold and snuggle and to one day see Troy playing with. Even though I want to control the situation, I know I can't. It is up to the Lord. He will answer my prayers when it is time, His time. And if not, then I know there is a reason. He has a plan that is greater than mine and I am learning to let go and let God take the wheel. It is hard! wink emoticon But I pray that if you are going though this, God IS in control and He will provide. He will give you comfort and help you. Please lean on Him and be grateful for everyday that we have on the earth. We are only here for a short time, so use it to glorify Him.
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| As soon as I found out, I got this shirt and took a picture as a way to announce our pregnant to family and friends. And this is how I told my husband and in-laws :) I love this picture and it saddens me that our son no longer needs to wear it. I pray that one day, he will get to wear it again :) |
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